CO | keep me here in this wild present tense
happy #PRIDE Denver 🌈💖 (pc: @abs graves )
The wildness of nature in the Southwest provides the most organic, reality shifting experiences in my opinion. More so than any substance or any manufactured ~*experience*~, a hike through the psychedelic shapes and colors of the desert makes me question my reality, and examine my thoughts & feelings. It simultaneously shakes me up and grounds me, setting me free from myself and the things I think are holding me back. I worry about how I will leave this behind. Would staring at pictures bring me here mentally and spiritually? Would an annual pilgrimage be enough? What new ways will I find of capturing this? ☀️🌵
The best day! Love you, Katie 💕💖
don't think I want what I used to want // don't think I need what I used to need
I think what I will miss the most is being able to hop in the car, drive for a few hours, and end up somewhere like this ☀️
Moab magic 🌈💫
Met this babe on the beach 2 years ago today, knew within 36 hours that we'd be together always. I always rolled my eyes at people saying "when you know, you know", but sometimes I guess you really do just know 🌊🌴❤
CONGRATS to 2nd LT Stobbe ⭐. I'm so proud of you and so excited to watch you live out your dreams.
Friends and lovers in the city 💖
That Friday feeling ✌🏼
Me at Southwest Arbor Fest is me living my absolute best life. (pc: @mackayleyr ) 🍻☀️😎
"You are rare, nothing can compare" - me to the desert
Happy Easter! 🌸🌷🌹
M A G I C 💫🌈
snow on the Mesa, sunshine in our hearts, beer in our bellies ☀️🍻🍀
It is unfair that if you've ever survived a Big Thing, you have to keep surviving for the rest of your life afterward. The Big Thing doesn't end with you as a survivor, a champion, a closed chapter. You are required to spend the rest of your life surviving. Surviving bad days, flash backs, insensitive comments, and painful stories in the news. The Big Thing lives with you in every moment- and you are never not surviving its presence. • • • It's unfair how a good day can turn bad so quickly. How the Big Thing can peek its head around the corner, wrap its long, icy fingers around your heart, and you remember that yes, I actually do want to die. I actually do want to rip this tainted skin off my bones, rip muscle from tendon, until there is no part of me left that he has touched, no part of me that has felt that pain, guilt, shame, disgust. To set my spirit free from this body sounds like bliss, but how unrealistic to think the Big Thing doesn't also live in my spirit and soul as a heavy weight, or an ugly scar so deep it will never fully heal. How naive to think it could ever go away, no matter what I do to myself. • • • The only option then is to cohabitate. To say to the Big Thing, "you can have this room, but the house is still mine." To show your Big Thing to other people's Big Thing and allow them to subdue each other. If you can, on occasion, feel gratitude for the Big Thing, and the ways it has tendered your heart, and strengthened your resolve, you will know what it means to look a demon in the eyes and not be afraid. You will know what it means to lay under the bed with the monster and quietly say, "so...we're an 'us' now I guess".
Forever thinking about this day and this trip. Forever wanting to be barefoot and running over the dunes, sliding back down. Forever wishing I was laying in the sun watching huge crows circle overhead. There are so many places I want to return to before I leave the country and just not enough time.
I never have the words for this big huge love. Love after an abusive relationship is so perilous but Alex is so steady and kind. My best friend, ally, supporter, teammate, & on & on & on. Happy love day; I hope you all feel loved by someone or someones 💖
For siblings that love being close and cuddly with each other we sure did a great job of scattering ourselves across the country :/ I am in a constant state of missing.
out here- where you can be lost & found
Whenever I'm taking pics of stuff I'm selling I'm like what omg I actually love this why am I selling it 😭 then I remember I haven't worn it in 2 years and also I have way too many clothes.
Not ready to go back to missing each other :( but so thankful for the best partner, lover, friend, husband. We just have the best time together.
Alex is a lot better at skating than me, almost like he's Canadian or something.
Christmas in the desert🌵🎅🏻
Everyone loves a Mesa Theater bathroom selfie 📸
Remember when it was warm out? ☀️
Hey I'm literally so stressed+overwhelmed 24/7 right now and every time I think I'm at max capacity something else comes up and I cry at least once per day and work 60+ hours a week and hardly sleep but anyways how are you
Just the best 💞